What do I have here that makes me happy? My host mom. My landlady's mom. Michael and Katherine and Tatiana and Carol from my Wednesday community class. Emmanuel and Rosita and Larix and Roger and pretty much everyone from my Saturday kiddy class. My little pink rose plant that Luis gave me. A group of boys that are entertaining without being disrespectful in my 10th grade B class. Mangoes. Luis. Random kids in my classes whose names I don't know. Megan (a nearby volunteer) cooking me delicious non-Nicaraguan food, and giving me wine, haha. Doky and Pelusa (my host family's dogs). Legit corn tortillas. A video I recently posted on facebook. Training friends. The people that are too nice for words. When students legitimitally understand what I am trying to teach and prove it.
...not necessarily in that order.
What do I have here that make me sad, angry, stressed, and frustrated? People who are too shitty for words. Feeling inadequate at my work. Feeling tired all the time. Being too busy to teach myself how to cook and to exercise. A bad day in class where I speak too much Spanish and the students don't listen to me but listen to Tania. Luis, sometimes. A bad day in class where I get flustered because I'm not quite sure about somethign I'm trying to teach. Weight gain. Feeling like Tania thinks I'm useless. Feeling like this planning and teaching thing is harder for me than it is for anyone else.
...not necessarily in that order.
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